Serenity

There’s always a constant chatter going on in my mind – lately it is mostly the analytcal criticism of myself and others. Even this post is the byproduct such a mind-chatter. True serenity lies in the stillness of mind which of course is the chief endeavor of each satsangi. Living according to Sant Mat principles is not easy. Each step and thought needs to be scrutinized. I sometimes feel like not doing or thinking anything at all- just keep my indulgence in thoughts and activities to a bare minimal. But then one or the other environmental factors and my worldly attachments push me into the whirlpool of thoughts and actions which I know are useless but still have to be done. At times this urge to stay inert causes a feeling of guilt of running away from my worldly duties. Then I really wish if I could be a robot – no clutter of emotions and thoughts. I think environment in terms of our associations with people (family, friends and co-workers etc.) is extreemely imporant and is deterimental to one’s well being both worldly and spiritual.

Looking at the above lines I’m realizing that these are simple facts I’ve heard and read many times but it sinks in only with experience.

What God wants

Many great saints have said the same thing that God is Love – pure and unadulterated. Essence of this simple statement is not easy to understand. As a great saint has said that it is a matter of experience not of intellect – it knows no logic, but only devotion and faith. God wants us to love Him for His sake and not for fulfilling our worldly desires. Almighty is a very jealous beloved – He doesn’t want us to love anything or anyone other than Him. And achieving such a love is not an easy thing to do. It is also true that unless we love Him as He wants us to love Him, we cannot be truly happy and cannot unite with Him. The one who loves Him the way He wants gets everything. Lord very eagerly wants us to return back to Him but He tests our true love and devotion for Him. I recently experienced how He might be feeling when we poor mortals fail to understand this and constantly try to do our own will rather than submitting ourselves to His Sweet Will. I guess most of the parents too will be able to relate to this feeling I’m talking about. We think that we can achieve true Happiness by our own efforts, but we are mistaken. It is only through our complete devotion and love for Him that we can be worthy of His Grace and meet Him. It is a matter of pleasing Him by doing whatever it takes! And it is not easy to do