The 3Ds
October 16, 2007
Most of the time I find myself struggling to balance the 3Ds – desires, duties and devotion to the Lord – of my life. I sometimes wonder what if my life ends tomorrow. And at some other times I feel all these jotting down of my thoughts, frustrations and emotions is futile and a wastage of time and energy. Life goes on as it has been ordained to go. The persistently recurring question is: Why I’m so restless most of the time; why the sporadic lulls so shotlived? Well, to find the remedy for a problem it is always necessary to first understand what the problem is and why it is there in the first place. Root of the problem lies in when I find myself trying to find leasting pleasure and happiness in anything perceivable by senses. I may get some temporary pleasure by way of the above. But the cost usually is very high – attachment to that object of pleasure. The above attachment slowly leads to a situation when I start believing that the object is mine. It’s like a child who, though, can forget the cute pet he plays with for a while at a store, but finds it so tough to even share it with friends later if mommy happens to buy him that pet. He just starts wrongly believing that the pet is his forever!
Being a Satsangi I know I’ve been bestowed with the greatest weapon to fight such situations, but the enemy too is formidable. I guess I’ve to overhaul my approach to life. As Maharaj Ji said that we should deal with our duties and asociations in our life like a store manager and not like owner of the store. Unlike the owner, the store manager is not bothered much about whether there is a loss or profit to the business; all he cares about is his assigned work and the wages.
I think with so many deep grooves of desires and attachments in my mind it will take a lot of training and nudging for my mind to function like a shop manager in the big shop called life whose owner is the Lord and to believe that any profit or loss to the shop is His business and not mine.
